There is something pretty fundamental missing from my life at the moment, if I knew what it was exactly I could at least make a plan of action, you know, concentrate on whatever I need to do to get me where I want to be. Does that make any sense? I don't mean career-wise, more like where I want to be *as a person*.
I'm finding life a mixture of stress during the day and a kind of creeping boredom at most other times, I really want to snap out of it and just *do* something. I have tended to think that my life (and enjoyment especially) is limited by limited funds, but it could be that the lack of spare cash is just an easy excuse to justify a life that is pretty mundane. If I had a wallet full of cash right now what would I do with it? I'm married, I have a small child, the answer is that I probably wouldn't actually be doing anything at all right now.
Don't misunderstand me, if I had my time over again I would still go the marriage and family route, I certainly don't regret it and I'm very lucky to have a wife I love and a daughter who means the world to me. I should be satisfied.